Readings: Isaiah 61: 1-4, 8-11 / 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-24 / John 1: 6-8,19-28
Oh that you would tear open the heavens and come down! Oh that you would make yourself known to us, so that we could see you and hear you. But in those days, after that suffering, the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light, and the stars will be falling from heaven, and the powers in the heavens will be shaken.
I have a fear that I am going to become the apocalyptic preacher. There is a part of me that is confused by and with the texts this last month. I don’t remember sitting in pews hearing these readings! What is going on?
These readings, however, put me in mind of a short story. I thought I had distinct memories of climbing into my mother’s lap when I was sad, confused, a little hurt, or just down and out. They are fleeting things, those memories, and I don’t know how true they are, but the feeling that my Mum gives in those moments has stuck with me. She’s the only one who knows how to rub my back in just the right way. The weight of her hand on the small of my back is sheer joy, stillness, and comfort. As an adult I still like to rest my head on her shoulder from behind her – because I’m now taller than her – and she is still that source of great comfort to me. I do have a particular clear memory of how much her comfort means to me: University was a tough time for me. I moved away from family and friends and attempted to start up an adult life away from everything I knew. It was lonely and hard. I can remember calling Mum, in tears and very upset because I was tired and didn’t want to do it anymore. I told her that I wanted to be that little 5-year old again, so I could crawl into her lap and have her make it all better. To be comforted. There was an incredible desire for her to swoop in and make everything fall into place.
Life gets hard, and some may say that it gets harder as you get older. The reality of coming into our own is not all that great. There is so much uncertainty. I think the wise of the world know that true wisdom comes when you stop trying to maintain control over all that uncertainty. There is an allure to control, to knowing and mastering the future. We want to know what our lives will be and exactly what we need to do in order to be happy, rich, influential, and powerful. All of those things. We extend this to our faith lives as well. We want to know exactly how God will come again into the world. What is it that we need to do exactly to be good, faithful, forgiven, justified. Why can’t God just come down here and clean it all up? We want that “mighty God” again.
This is the thing about the theme of waiting in Advent: When we wait for the coming of God, we acknowledge that there is a palpable lack of a presence. We see a lack of God in the chaos and confusion around us. We feel that absence, and it is easy to feel thus abandoned. Where is God in the midst of all of the war and fighting, hatred, selfishness, injustice, and all of that? Where is God when the innocent are dying for a cause they know nothing about? When the world feels overwhelmed and heavy by all of the negativity, it looks to God for comfort and healing. The world seeks to find a God who seems so tangibly absent. As a humanity that seeks to place control within a seemingly chaotic situation, we aim to place God’s decisive action in such a way that we can point at a place or person, and say: There. There is God. We go so far as to set God’s decisive action neatly into a manger scene and try to make it nice. Almost like neatly wrapping it up with a pretty glittery bow. One you can hand over to the world’s weary, and say: Here. Here is God. Christ coming into the midst of humanity, however, is that Mighty God that we are looking for. It is an incredibly awesome thing. Christ became human, so that we would find light in the midst of all the world’s darkness.
How do we expect God to be? Where is God going to show up now and in the future? Perhaps Advent is about being aware of the places where we are convinced we’ve got God and questioning if that’s entirely true. Christ cautions us: Stay awake. Don’t get lulled into false expressions of God or of the future, because we might get caught up in preparing for the wrong event, or anticipating something that is unrealistic and incapable of happening.
The day I called my Mum was an especially low one for me. I was struggling with low grades, few friends, and little income. I was feeling an increasing pressure to perform and excel. My mother imparted great wisdom to me that day. She very calmly asked me what it was exactly that I wanted from her. What did I expect her to be? The truth of my desire was that I could never be a little girl anymore. I could never crawl into her lap again without crushing her entirely. And she couldn’t take over and make everything perfect. But she was very proud of a daughter who left everything she knew and was comfortable with to become an adult, to learn new things, see new options, and try something frightening. She told me that even though the days I was longing for were good and truly gone, she was still there, with me, going through everything that I was going through as only a mother could, and I could rely on that for encouragement and comfort. I really wasn’t alone, and she became a light of Christ in the midst of my pain.
Light is a very important thing in the Markan text. There is an interesting theme to it. Mark may be the briefest gospel text on Christ’s life and teaching, but the structure to what is there gives us insight into a deep and meaningful theology that the writer was trying to impart. Today’s Gospel reading comes from a three part section once Jesus and the disciples have made it to Jerusalem. This section is about Christ changing the perspective of the church being Jerusalem into a perspective that looks to Christ as the centre of the church. Everything that Jesus has spoken about that everyone has taken to mean a NEW Jerusalem is redirected at himself. It makes the destruction of Jerusalem seem more real, more destructive, and full of more meaning when it is turned toward a man.
My favourite text about the human character of Christ is about Jesus cursing the fig tree outside of Jerusalem. It happens right before he tosses the market at the Temple. That curse withers that poor little tree as an example of God’s power. And in today’s gospel text Jesus turns it around. That little fig tree will become tender again – there will be signs of Christ’s return, and no one will know the exact time and date, but we can have faith that no matter how negative the world gets, Heaven and earth will not pass away. Christ’s words are there to light the way.
This theme delves deeper still. Mark’s gospel text is set up like a full day with a twist. It is the day of Christ’s death and resurrection. There is evening, midnight, the cock crow, and dawn. It is not just the crucifixion and passion tale that has this theme. All of Christ’s life is this theme over and over. And to Mark, the coming of Christ is going to look a lot like it did before. We can take strength and courage from this. We are not really alone...God is still all around us. This Advent: Stand in the presence of God. The one who came and will come again. Wait for the Lord, be strong, take heart.